Monday, July 9, 2012

Perspective

     It's amazing how perception shapes reality.  Yesterday I found myself slipping towards despondency as the frustration of several things weighed in on me.  Money is one of the big worries on my mind lately.  That's nothing unusual I suppose.  It's just part of the human condition.  The thing that I have been struggling with in particularly lately are my physical restrictions.  On a gorgeous day like yesterday I just wanted to be outside.  But between my neck and my daughter (who has a strict nap schedule to keep) I ended up stuck inside.  It's always something I guess.  How many of us get to live life exactly the way we want it?  There's always one thing or another pulling us this way or that.  Work, responsibilities, money limitations, and all that keep us from truly living the life we want to.  Yet, at the same time, who am I to complain?  Just this morning I was reading some of the world news and I thought to myself, "wow -  you've got it really good compared with a lot of people."  As I said, it's all about perspective.  Looking outside right now, the sky is a gorgeous shade of robins egg blue.  I can hear kids playing on the playground.  And, I am reminded what a wonderful world I live in.  
     Writing this helps me.  Semper Porro.  That's my pledge to always keep moving forward. Of course, the tricky part is being careful not to lose sight of the present.  I often find myself comparing the present moment to my hope for the future.  In my ideal future I have more money, more time, more freedom, more health, more everything really.  It's hard not to wish myself into the future.  When I get like that, I try to be mindful of how much I have already. I can't live in the future and I don't want to dwell on the past.  I guess the best way of looking at it would be to try and make today better than yesterday and not worry so much about tomorrow.  Part of that means to be more appreciative and graceful today than I was yesterday.  Take today as it is and recognize how precious this moment is.  Okay, I am starting to sound overly philosophical and annoying.  Deep breath.  Okay.  Enjoy the moment.  Be aware of what you have.  Make the most of it.  Try to make today better than yesterday.  I can do that.