Let's be honest, no one really reads blogs. Everyone seems to have one, but nobody actually reads them right? I mean, why would anyone want to read about all those boring mundane details of other people's lives? My life certainly doesn't have much to offer in terms of plot. I am not the captain of a crabbing boat in Alaska or a famous soccer player with a pop star for a wife. My life right now is just a steady grind. I watch my kids, I write, I work on training schedules, I take care of stuff around the house, I teach piano a couple days a week, and I try to fit in anything else that needs to be done in between all that. In fact, I bet my days are a lot like anyone else's. I have still have big plans though. The difference is, now I am investing in other people's success instead of my own.
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| Cherry Blossoms |
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Time seems to be moving at a different scale now. Before, I was so wrapped up in the moment that the years just flew by. Now I am acutely aware of each day. Right now it feels like I am just passing time until everything I am working on starts moving forward. I am waiting for my lawsuit to be wrapped up. I am waiting for the guys I coach to hit that next level. I am waiting for my one year old to grow out of the screaming phase. I am waiting to somehow make sense of the direction I am going in. I am waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting. I am so tired of waiting. I know I am moving forward, but it's different from before. I miss the freedom of my old life. I wasn't always going forward, but I was moving. I guess I just have to be patient. Sometimes in life you have to slow down in order to really start moving forward.
I started teaching my daughter Chloe to play the piano when she turned six. In the back of my head I have visions of her becoming a singer when she grows up. Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, but I figure if I can give her the right tools, then she will at least have options when she gets older. My parents gave me a lot of opportunities when I was growing up and now I want to do that for my daughters. Right now, learning the piano is just a grind. It's not like Chloe is amazingly gifted or anything. What she does have is a father who can help her learn a valuable skill. I will see to it that she puts in the hours necessary to be really good. How many more till she hits 10,000?
Two of the guys I coach are leaving for Europe today. I feel like a parent watching their kids go off to college. I am so nervous. I wonder, did I give them everything they need? Did I push them hard enough? Are they prepared for what's coming? I can only sit tight and be patient now. I did the best that I could with the resources I had. I am not satisfied though - I can do better. I am more motivated than ever to improve my training tools and resources to be able to help people better. Right now, I have my sights set on buying a house. Once I have that I will have a base of operations to work out of. Of course I can't move forward on buying a house until my lawsuit is finalized. To be honest I am ready to just be done with the whole process so I can move forward with my life.
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| Bryan Larsen attacking at the Tour de Murrietta |
I think probably the hardest part of being slow and steady is simply appreciating being slow and steady. The Tortoise may win the race eventually, but the Hare has more fun. There is nothing fun or exciting about making slow, but steady progress. I suppose the plot will thicken soon enough. When that time comes I'll probably wish I had been more prepared. Hmm. I guess I better keep working.
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| Laguna Beach |
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